Friday, 30 January 2009


Yet again I should be doing something and I'm not. What is wrong with me????
I really want to do it. It's important.
It's open on my desktop vertually and is in physical form next to me, yet I'm still nosing at facebook and blogger!?!

Right, I'm disconnecting the internet until it's done! So there.


Wednesday, 28 January 2009

Ok People ...

Ok people.... big week this week. I'm going to submit a story to a publisher for a short story anthology for the first time. Dun Dun DUN!

Well, I will - when I've finished it. Had a good meeting with my tutor today, he's helped me loads so hopefully it should be half decent. The only problem is it needs to be there by Saturday, which means I definately needs to get my skates on (hopefully not Todd Carty's ....he funny!).

So wish me luck. I'm not stressing over it too much because it can still go in one of my folders in Uni, so it isn't a total waste of time if I don't get it done in time or it completely bombs.


Saturday, 24 January 2009


You know when you have been on the computer too long when you go to write something long-hand, you clearly spell something wrong and you think 'Nevermind, spellchecker will get it.'

Wednesday, 21 January 2009

Work, work, work ....

Blogging seems soooooo much harder when you have so many other things to do. I no longer have time to procrastinate! I literealy havn't stopped. Whats the world coming to?
Fatty's Blog is going well, I showed it to my tutor today and he gave rather possitive feedback - he would like a first draft by Monday! :S

I've changed my mind for the critcal review. I'm going to do it on Jeremy Dronfield's 'The Alchemist's Apprentice'. I'm quite excited about it because I'm only on page 93 and I'm already messed in the head trying to work it out. It's exactly the same feeling I had while watching '7 Pounds' - the new Will Smith film. Something between 'wow, this is complicated' and 'What the hell is going on!'

I think I'm on top of things, it's just they keep moving so fast that it could be deceiving. I'm doing my poetry quietly - still not the progress I would like but at least it's getting done - if a little slowly. I'm a quater of a way through the story I want for my Dissertation and Myth and Narrative is pretty much looking after itself. (Had the result for my essay back today - rather disapointed but still a good mark)

So, Yeah, All go on the bus as mother would say.

Saturday, 17 January 2009

New Experimental Blog

Ok. I've taken the 'making a fake blog idea' and applied it, not to my dissertation, but to another story that I'm working on. It's meant to focus on body image and she is just a normal young woman talking about her weight problems and how she is trying to overcome them. I'm hoping that putting it in the form of a blog will make the story interesting - focus it on her voice - and also keep me motivated as I have a short time frame to write it in. I'll try and add to it every-other day. So feel free to drop in and give 'Fatty' some encouragement . lol.

Thursday, 15 January 2009


I'd like to say thankyou very much to Judith for an award she gave me on her blog.

Here are the rules:
1) Put the logo on your blog
2) Add the link of the blogger who shared the award with you
3) Pass this award to bloggers whose blogs you love
4) Add your link to the list of participants below
5) Leave a message on the blog of the blogger who passed this award

Blogs I love are:
Musings from a muddy island. -for the beautiful photographs.
Planting words
and Venessa Gebbie's news.

There Job Jobbed.

Help and advice needed!

Ok. Brain wave - need help.
For my dissertation I'm doing a story about a girl who was 100% sure she was pregnant, but went to the doctor and was told she was not. She lives her life happily for a few months falls in love falls off the wagon and then drops a sprog in the middle of ASDA. I'm having problems with her voice. I've changed it from 1st person to 2nd person and back again but I can't seem to work out what is bugging me. So what do people think of mixing the two. I'm thinking slightly biased but ultimately omnipresent 2nd person narrator punctuated with entries from her BLOG so that I can develope her voice but also keep the narrator (a very sarky and biased voice) who knows more than her but doesn't let it all on. The other thought is - should I actually make a Blog for her? step into her character and really get into her head? and then include screen shots in the story..... or am I going too far for a 10,000 word story?
What do we think?
I would be greatful for any input.

Tuesday, 13 January 2009

Cricket song ...

I'm currently sat on James' bed pretending to do some work while he sits at the computer fretting over his. I just read the brief of what he has to do and I have to say whoever wrote his course needs a good slap around the face. It seems like they keep moving the goal posts for him. The brief for this latest assingment is fine until about halfway down the page - where the 'reflective journal' he should write turns into a 'research paper'. Nothing is clear - not even the wordcount!

I feel so bad for him but I can't do anything to help him because I know nothing about Computer Games Development and Artificial Intelligence. What can I go?

And while all this is happening there is a box of crickets cirping in the corner which makes it sound like we are sat in the middle of the jungle trying to do our Uni work.

Monday, 12 January 2009


Because I'm ill and I can't go to school - I can't return my library books! So now I have fines! I'm mortified. I can't renew them because someone has reserved them but I have a feeling they don't need them anymore because they were for an essay we had before xmas. *Miffed*.

I wan't to go back to Uni, I've got so much work to do but I know the walk from the car park (miles away) to my lecture rooms and library would kill me right now. Mam opened the door earlier to let the cat in and the cold air set me off on a 15min coughing fit.

I wrote a poem! yay! It's very different from my normal attempts so I'm keen to see how it goes down. I'm feeling a lot better about my work now, I feel slightly more motivated and ever so slightly more productive. So now I'm going to go and do some work...... yay!

Friday, 9 January 2009

Flu Update ....

He he, not really, I won't bore with it anymore. I'm on the mend now.
One thing it's allowed me to do is watch more telly. I never get to watch telly. Maybe Emmerdale and Heroes (when I remember). I'm really loving 'Anne Frank' on the beeb. And Hustle is back! glad I caught that last night. Bit miffed I spotted the twist, not straight away mind but her dark brown wig was a givaway and the fact her money was in £20's.

I've not done a huge amount of work this week. My brain just wont work properly - so I'm getting some reading done instead. I know I have to do a critical review as part of my Dissertation so I've been looking at what I have thats new-ish and I think I've settled on 'The Book Theif' by Markus Zusak. I havn't finnished it yet - but I can see the style it is written in would make a good central argument of a critical paper. - so nobody spoil it for me.

I'm going to drag myself away from my laptop now then.

Tuesday, 6 January 2009

Sympathy please.

I have had an awful couple of days.
I have Flu and in an effort to stay away from my dad (beacuse he is on oxygen 12 hours a day and if got it i don't know how he would cope) I went to stay over James' house. but that all went wrong and I couldn't relax and I got worse so I'm home today confined to my bedroom.

Now that the moaning is over: I just watched the first episode of 'The Diary of Anne Frank' on iplayer today and the first thing that struck me was 'OMG the set is exacly as it should be.' I went to Anne Frank's house when I went to University in Holland at easter. The moment when you round the corner and see a bookcase proped open made me catch my breath. You have to squeeze through the gap. Funny thing is it's almost as I imagined when reading her diary. In the living room I ran my fingers down the knife marks on the sideboard next to the sink. Edith chopped veg here.
They have done an awsome job with the set and the street scenes. The way it is acted is very interesting and from what I remember from the old dramatisation - this version seems to be more, I don't know, real? The way Mr and Mrs Van Daan are screaming at each other one day and pinching bottoms the next.

Hope it will be a good series.

P.s I've written nothing - my brain is being invaded by little flu minions - head gits with little pick axes.

Saturday, 3 January 2009


...I'm feeling a little better about the writing thing. Since my last post I've only managed about 300 words - but- Thats way more than I've written over the holidays and it gave me a chance to pull everything out, find all my drafts (because you loose marks if you don't include them) and plan the entire story. I've got a few things I need to find out but I'll ring my auntie for that. I need info on premature babies and she's a midwify person on a premature baby ward - so I think I picked a good topic. lol.

Also, I have completed my first poem! well, it can still be changed but I'm happy with it. Not brilliant considering I want about 20 poems by the end of march - but it's a start. Thats how I'm going to look at it. At least I've done some of it. There are some people on my course that haven't even put pen to paper yet and have about 12 weeks and a bit to write 10,000 words. At least I'm planned and started.

Right, I'm going to go and read, because I also have to do a critical essay on a contemporary work of fiction.
Night night.


Why am I sooooo pants at this?

I've been reading a lot of blogs that are done by writers and they all talk about writing 80,000 words and 100,000 words and I've finnished this novel and i've done this story, and this article.
On the one hand it's inspiring - I want to do these things. I want to be able to write 1000 words a day - preferrably for my Dissertation and other writing classes.

But on the other hand it's reminding me of how crap I actually am at this. Am I dreaming about something that I will never achieve? I barely write 100 words in a week let alone 1000 a day. I'm crap. I'm not motivated enough, I always seem to find something better to do with my time i.e. writing on a blog hardly anyone reads. I suppose this time it has a purpose because after writing this I'll spend 10mins looking at my work, I may even print it off so that it's tangible and physical and it might make me feel a bit better about what I've done and motivate me to write more than my usual meager offering. But it I know it wont last, I'll get bored, I'll find something slightly interesting on telly or I'll wander back to facebook when I know I should be sat here doing what I want to do for the rest of my life. If I want it so bad, why can't I just DO it??

Grrrrrr. I'm angry at myself.
I'm going to go and write something useful now, even if it kills me!