Well. what a whirlwind.

I went along to my first GCSE English class yesterday. I'll be teaching the rabble that sat before me by about late oct, so not long really. :S

They are going to be doing 'Under Milk Wood' which has made me very happy.

I can't believe how much I was itching when I was sat 'observing' the class. I felt such an urge to say something. Help the ones having difficulties. I never realised it would feel like that. I felt like a teacher. It was strange how I seemed to change the way I was acting just because I'm going to be on the other side of the desk.

I can't wait to get my teeth stuck in.

The problem is, this has really excited me. So much so that Saiaburys seems so mundain in contrast. It just reinforces that it is most definately not where I want to be.

But the way things are at the moment I should be greatful I have a job. Is it so bad that I'm not?

Lx

Time flies....

When your doing too much. Just a quick one to ease me back into the Blogosphere.

Work is crazy. I've been covering for someone in another store for the last two weeks FULL TIME and it has just been mad. Glad to say, I'm back to my part time hours next week.

Well, not much has happened in the world of Leah, apart from I may have my first little publication in an independent mag - I'll update you when it's confirmed.

Start my Teaching course next week. rather excited.

Update you sooooon. Lx

Here I am, making a boob of myself in a silly hat. I managed to get through the entire thing without falling over or indecently exposing myself. I spent 3 hours convinced a fly was buzzing around my head and pulling m shirt down because the hood kept pulling it up.

BUT the rain held off, everyone was smiling and I am now a Graduate! :)

Now------ What's next?

It's Official...

I have had my first rejection letter. I am now officially a writer. :)

It was rather nice to be honest - not to painful, very polite, very gentle.
Perfect way to pop my 'you're not good enough' Cherry.

I'm going to go and write something now.
Lx

Degree Results!!!!!

2:1 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Super happy!

Got rather drunk at a wonderful BBQ last night to celebrate.
Feeling kinda good it's all over and I don't have the stress but sad at the same time because it has been such a big part of my life for the last 3 years. Can't wait to make a tit of myself in a Harry Potter costume in one months time. Must go and order it.... silly hat and all....

Love to all

Leah Ebdon Ba Hons. :)

Hi Ho Hi Ho....

...It's off to work I go.
First week of my new job over with. I am a Merchandising Controller :) Head shelf-stacker basicly. I organise where the wonderful high quality and resonably priced products go on the shelf according to a plan sent down by the mystical on-high 'head-office'.
It is really good actually. It's only part time but it pays well and has a certain amount of responsibility which on one hand may put undue pressure on me - but on the other hand makes it far more interesting, challenging and bareable than sitting on a till for 8 hours a day bleeping my life away.

Anyway. So, now thats sorted I can stop worrying about money in the long term and get on with organising my up-coming education in the world of teaching. Spiffing.

Busy day tommorow...... I have to go to Uni to collect my results. :s
I'm not worried about passing.... I'm reasonably confident I have at least a 2:1. I'm just quietly dying for a first. We shall see. All fingers crossed, and toes and arms and legs and any other extremities you care to cross.

Night all. Lx

Hello Sunday!

Feeling rather more possitive about... well, everything really.
Father's Day present went down well.

Start new job properly tomorrow..... 7am! AM! Has to be done though.
*Poor student rant* bla bla bla.

Had a lovely weekend with the other half before I'm in work all week. Watched loads of Babylon 5. :) Played a great deal of World of Warcraft. :) Very distracting.



Have started writing again. Nothing spectatular. But at least it's on the agenda again. :)
I'll Blog when I have something worth blogging about. Lx

Quagmire

You know when you feel the world is passing you by - whissing on about you and all the people in your life are moving on and your not. Even though I have a new job and it does seem to be something I could hang onto for a while, even though I have a degree behind me and possibly a PGCE infront --- I still feel like I'm going nowhere. Definately not in a writing way.

Did I just waste 3 years of my life doing something that I'm actually not that good at? Not good enough to make anything of myself anyway. I think it's because in getting to know the other people on my course I've got to know my potencial competitors. Comparing yourself to others never has a good outcome does it? I dunno. I'm just feeling a bit stagnant. Uninspired. Board. Crap with a capital.

Ok - Quagmire busting suggestions please. Writing related. Lets get this show on the road.

I think I'll start with flash fiction and poetry. Get some sort of juices going - even if they are naff, out of practice juices. Or I may just go for it and start a novel. What have I got to loose? Apart from time? and effort? Shush Leah!

ANYWAY

Gosh this is a good form of therapy.

I'm going to write something tonight people. yes. I am. I'll let you know what happens. lol

Love to all.
Lx

So much...

Has happened in the last few weeks.
I have finnished Uni and await my results. eeeeek.
I have aquired employment in the form of Sainsbury's (I start tomorrow)
And Dilly the beautiful Red-Eyed Crocodile skink laid an egg! (no baby inside but it shows she is of age, which is great!)

My better half had an accident on his motorbike about 8 weeks ago and broke his arm (2 4x4's pulled out on him then drove off.... *shakes fist*) and he is very happy to have had his cast off finally. :)

While all this has been going on I have realised something which is blindingly obvious but passed my attention for too long. I haven't made time to write. *slaps wrist* I haven't written a thing since finishing my Dissertation which was over 6 weeks ago. FAIL.

So, as it seems to be the month of possitive thinking, new beginnings and such, I hearby promise to make time to write. With no agenda - I'm not going to put pressure on myself by writing for a purpose just yet, but I've been set free into the world. I can write anyting- about anything. I just want to sit back and see what happens first.

I am dissapointed the BNP got into the European Parliament. After having an unofficial tour there last year, I got to see what most visitors don't and I came to understand the importance of our representatives in Brussels. Seems the expenses shambles hit Labour harder than they expected. Feels like this country is falling apart at the seams.

Anyway, to end on a high note, I was inspired by my good friend Zaraface to join Weightwatchers. I'm half a stone lighter and feeling great for it! :)

Love to the world and all who sail in her!
LX

Fog...

At the beginning of this year I wrote in my journal (for one of my classes) about how I felt like I was standing at the top of a cliff looking down. Peering through the layer of fog at what could be below. I felt like I was getting ready to jump and wondering if at the bottom there would be a lovely pile of paper-backs to catch me or would I get torn apart by the jagged rocks of procrastination and self doubt.
I got over it and finished my degree. You all know I'm a worrier by now and to be honest I never thought I could do it really.
Now it's all over, I stand at the bottom waiting for a certificate to fall gently down from above, I look out at the horison and see how the ground falls away into an expance of cliff tops with even thicker layers of fog blinding me to my fate below.
It will never end will it? If I want more from my life it will never end...
I will always be staring down into plumes of mist and fog wondering what's next.