Hamsters!!!

I'm just here to introduce to you my new little friends....

This is Pax...

And this is Kosh....

See if you can guess where their names came from..... he he

out of touch.

I feel very removed from the things I want in my life.

I started in Sainsburys because I wanted a part-t

ime job to get some money which I was doing my PGCE (Which is going very well btw, I will elaborate below). But now I'm finding it's taking up far too much of my time and emotional energy. Because my store isn't open yet I'm being thrown all over the place, training here there and everywhere. They are sending me to Bridgend on tuesday - I have never driven there and it is the same day I teach GCSE English as an evening class. I'm going to be shattered. The thing that is not my priority is taking over and damaging the thing that is most definitely top of my list.

This displeases me.

The PGCE is excellent! Very interesting. Teaching this GCSE class is going to be such an eye-opener. They are doing Under Milk Wood, which I had not read before but I am enjoying quite a lot.

It's going to be hard though. Especially with work putting the pressure on. I've not written a thing since I left Uni. I'm just fried. I can't carry on like this for much longer. Something's got to give.

Well. what a whirlwind.

I went along to my first GCSE English class yesterday. I'll be teaching the rabble that sat before me by about late oct, so not long really. :S

They are going to be doing 'Under Milk Wood' which has made me very happy.

I can't believe how much I was itching when I was sat 'observing' the class. I felt such an urge to say something. Help the ones having difficulties. I never realised it would feel like that. I felt like a teacher. It was strange how I seemed to change the way I was acting just because I'm going to be on the other side of the desk.

I can't wait to get my teeth stuck in.

The problem is, this has really excited me. So much so that Saiaburys seems so mundain in contrast. It just reinforces that it is most definately not where I want to be.

But the way things are at the moment I should be greatful I have a job. Is it so bad that I'm not?

Lx

Time flies....

When your doing too much. Just a quick one to ease me back into the Blogosphere.

Work is crazy. I've been covering for someone in another store for the last two weeks FULL TIME and it has just been mad. Glad to say, I'm back to my part time hours next week.

Well, not much has happened in the world of Leah, apart from I may have my first little publication in an independent mag - I'll update you when it's confirmed.

Start my Teaching course next week. rather excited.

Update you sooooon. Lx

Here I am, making a boob of myself in a silly hat. I managed to get through the entire thing without falling over or indecently exposing myself. I spent 3 hours convinced a fly was buzzing around my head and pulling m shirt down because the hood kept pulling it up.

BUT the rain held off, everyone was smiling and I am now a Graduate! :)

Now------ What's next?

It's Official...

I have had my first rejection letter. I am now officially a writer. :)

It was rather nice to be honest - not to painful, very polite, very gentle.
Perfect way to pop my 'you're not good enough' Cherry.

I'm going to go and write something now.
Lx

Degree Results!!!!!

2:1 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Super happy!

Got rather drunk at a wonderful BBQ last night to celebrate.
Feeling kinda good it's all over and I don't have the stress but sad at the same time because it has been such a big part of my life for the last 3 years. Can't wait to make a tit of myself in a Harry Potter costume in one months time. Must go and order it.... silly hat and all....

Love to all

Leah Ebdon Ba Hons. :)

Hi Ho Hi Ho....

...It's off to work I go.
First week of my new job over with. I am a Merchandising Controller :) Head shelf-stacker basicly. I organise where the wonderful high quality and resonably priced products go on the shelf according to a plan sent down by the mystical on-high 'head-office'.
It is really good actually. It's only part time but it pays well and has a certain amount of responsibility which on one hand may put undue pressure on me - but on the other hand makes it far more interesting, challenging and bareable than sitting on a till for 8 hours a day bleeping my life away.

Anyway. So, now thats sorted I can stop worrying about money in the long term and get on with organising my up-coming education in the world of teaching. Spiffing.

Busy day tommorow...... I have to go to Uni to collect my results. :s
I'm not worried about passing.... I'm reasonably confident I have at least a 2:1. I'm just quietly dying for a first. We shall see. All fingers crossed, and toes and arms and legs and any other extremities you care to cross.

Night all. Lx

Hello Sunday!

Feeling rather more possitive about... well, everything really.
Father's Day present went down well.

Start new job properly tomorrow..... 7am! AM! Has to be done though.
*Poor student rant* bla bla bla.

Had a lovely weekend with the other half before I'm in work all week. Watched loads of Babylon 5. :) Played a great deal of World of Warcraft. :) Very distracting.



Have started writing again. Nothing spectatular. But at least it's on the agenda again. :)
I'll Blog when I have something worth blogging about. Lx

Quagmire

You know when you feel the world is passing you by - whissing on about you and all the people in your life are moving on and your not. Even though I have a new job and it does seem to be something I could hang onto for a while, even though I have a degree behind me and possibly a PGCE infront --- I still feel like I'm going nowhere. Definately not in a writing way.

Did I just waste 3 years of my life doing something that I'm actually not that good at? Not good enough to make anything of myself anyway. I think it's because in getting to know the other people on my course I've got to know my potencial competitors. Comparing yourself to others never has a good outcome does it? I dunno. I'm just feeling a bit stagnant. Uninspired. Board. Crap with a capital.

Ok - Quagmire busting suggestions please. Writing related. Lets get this show on the road.

I think I'll start with flash fiction and poetry. Get some sort of juices going - even if they are naff, out of practice juices. Or I may just go for it and start a novel. What have I got to loose? Apart from time? and effort? Shush Leah!

ANYWAY

Gosh this is a good form of therapy.

I'm going to write something tonight people. yes. I am. I'll let you know what happens. lol

Love to all.
Lx